At times like these I just feel tired of being me. I wish I could be anyone else but me... But if that really happened..I would miss myself. I guess the best thing to do is to stop thinking and just let go with the flow.. But I find it hard to live that way. I've been listening to a lot of Johnny Cash and Buddy Holly these days. It's one of those times when you notice your musical genre is changing, along with many other things.. Many weird things happened in my life this month. Mainly; - had a lot of trouble with my parents.. I hate kids, I really do..but just cause to prove my parents wrong I want to be the coolest mom ever one day.. uhm..or maybe not.!
- My room looks like anything but a room now..
- BaD girl! bad bad bad =( I'm falling behind in most of my classes. The spring has hit me hard..
- But I'm having a lot of fun being a social butterfly.!
 - Plus I gotta new boyfriend.
But I'm really getting suspicious that things are wrong with me. So for the first time in a long time I felt that I can still like this boy even after we start going out. He pretty much has everything I would want in a guy..but..but..I don't know..(or maybe I do but don't want to share  ) I just hope that in time we'll get to know each other better and who knows maybe I'll fall in love..hehe..the problem is, till that time..i probably shouldn't be acting the way I do around others. I always thought I was one of the kindest, sweetest, innocent people out there. but everything is proving me wrong. It's amazing how easily people fall for their own lies.. A friend told me that after trying to get to understand boys I've made myself become one. (in the mind that is ) which can be a blessing or a curse. Or maybe I'm so addicted to drama that when things are going great I get this urge to fuck it all up.! Still, life is oh so precious. .. I don't have any new pictures so in lieu of a proper journal entry I'll post this one from january, which is also my bf s favourite 
also.. I was having fun with my nail-polishes..First I painted my toes and finger nails. (you can never go wrong with black and red!) and then.... 
Who says nail polish should strictly be used on nails!?! My dragon was happy to have a make-over. The same couldn't be said about my white carpet which has a long black line of nail polish on now nor my poor lungs..so i couldn't finish it. But I feel strangely relieved now. Or maybe im high from the fumes!  | 
